Ugh…
Now that I made the decision to join this lab in Micro, I am now doubting my decision. This, I assume, is stemming from the anxiety I feel about starting in the lab again as I have been out of the lab for about a year now - that is centuries in lab time.
Ultimately it comes down to this: is attaining this degree really worth the upcoming 3 - 3.5 years of my life?! I mean like really - I better have my DREAM job waiting for me at the end of this journey. I guess my main concern is that I don’t want to spend the prime of my youth stressed and crazed! By the time I finish, I will be 28-29 and will want to start having kids right away (with my soon to be husband of course :-) )…AHHHHHHHHHHH……so many things to think about.
And it doesn’t help that I have severe insomnia. I guess I will just breathe for now and then just take it as it comes without losing my mind.